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Title: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: pyrennial on February 15, 2012, 02:19:54 PM
On Saturday, Feb 11th - I lost my beloved Pandora. 

She did very well with Addison's  - her initial diagnosis was in Sept 2006 - and for a Great Pyrenees -the 10.5 years we had was all together too short but a pretty decent span for her breed.

She had a liver infection that put her in the emergency clinic for three days back in November - we didn't think she would recover - but she did.  She rallied and gave us another three months.  The final decision came when she lost the strength in her back legs and we knew she couldn't continue.

The grief is overwhelming at times.  I'm not doing very well.  Mason is still with us - but he's been acting like more of a senior than Pandora ever did.   The last 6-9 months you can see the arthritis settling in his joints.  He sleeps a lot.  Walks very slowly.  We'd like to let him live out his span before we consider adopting a new adult or a new puppy - as much as a new puppy would give us a distraction and a bit of sunlight in our dreary present existence - he's an old man on a good day and I don't want him to become a grumpy old man or a resentful old man.  To be honest - I don't think he's going to last much longer.  I love him but just not the same way - Pandora owned my entire heart. 

I wish I could just give myself time to grieve, unfortunately - I can't.  I'm a dance instructor and my annual student show is a little more than a week away.  The adult classes knew Pandora, as it wasn't at all unusual for me to schedule rehearsals at the house.  Pandora loved greeting the students at the door and seeing them off when they left.  They loved her and have been a great source of support for me.

But I can't cancel the show. The classes have worked too hard,  we donate the proceeds from the show to a local charity. 
What I have done is eliminated my solo spots.  I'll only be performing with the children's classes and even that is going to be difficult.

I'm torn - on one hand I'd like to curl up with my memories and allow myself time to grieve.
on the other - I need to accomplish a long list of to do items to make this show a success - or at least NOT a dismal failure.  It's not just my student show it represents my professional life.  I have delegated the tasks I can but.... there are certain things that only I can do. 
Any suggestions for getting through the next few weeks would be appreciated.

I know some of you remember Pandora and it helps to be with people who understand the grief.

Thank you for being here.

 


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: minniesmom on February 15, 2012, 02:41:26 PM
 {{~~}} I'm so very sorry. Pandora will be missed greatly.
On one hand, it's good you have some distractions and commitments to keep your mind busy, but I also know the need to grieve. I'm sure your students will do their best to make things easier for you.

RIP. sweet Pandora

Please check back and let us know how you are doing.  {{~~}}


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: iloveshepherds on February 15, 2012, 03:27:17 PM
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Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: Kim H on February 15, 2012, 06:55:11 PM
I'm so sorry. I remember sweet Pandora and all that she's been through over the last couple years of her life. You both were so lucky to have each other.

I understand your pain.  {{~~}}


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: pyrennial on February 15, 2012, 07:41:36 PM
Thank you.

the house just seems so empty without her.


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: dawnk777 on February 15, 2012, 08:10:12 PM
I'm sorry to hear about your loss.  They leave a big hole in our houses and hearts, when they are gone.  I hope your show is a big success!   {{~~}}


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: KivaLuver on February 15, 2012, 09:23:03 PM
I'm sorry for your loss.  {{~~}} The pain of losing a family member whether human or canine, can be seem overwhelming at times. The only words I can offer is to allow yourself to grieve in ways that are best for you. Everyone is different. I agree the show will help you some and it sounds like you have a good support group at home and work. We are always here for you too.  {{~~}}


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: phbeardog on February 15, 2012, 10:32:36 PM
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I am so sorry for your loss, RIP pretty girl and mommy will come get you at the bridge when the time is right!! ~0~  You will always be loved and missed but never forgotten!!  All of our beloved babies will help show you the way, run pain free at the bridge sweet girl!!!

Know that she no longer hurts or suffers and you will meet again, that is all that keeps me going with each one that I lose, because I know we will all be together again when it is time.. {{~~}}


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: janpo1 on February 16, 2012, 06:41:04 AM


I am so very sorry for your loss.  RIP Pandora.  You join so many good pups at the bridge. 

You grieve however feels right for you.  There is no right or wrong way to grieve.   {{~~}}


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: pyrennial on February 22, 2012, 08:30:47 PM
I brought her ashes home today.  }++{

I thought I was doing okay but it just brings it all back to the forefront.


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: minniesmom on February 22, 2012, 09:08:15 PM
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It made me feel better to have the ashes home with me.  It's hard at first, but gets better.


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: Trisha on February 23, 2012, 01:22:52 PM
It is very sad, when you first bring the ashes home but I find it brings me some comfort after awhile. I have Daisy beside Sheva along with their favorite toys. I talk to them sometimes.


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: Sally on February 24, 2012, 07:06:30 PM
 {{~~}} I'm so late to this.  I'm sorry about Pandora.  {{~~}}


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: megs on February 27, 2012, 06:57:36 PM
 {{~~}}  So sorry about Pandora.  My thoughts are with you. 


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: pyrennial on January 25, 2013, 03:37:21 PM
the anniversary is approaching.

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you.  I still miss you desperately. 

I miss your face, I miss your greetings, I miss your easy companionship, I miss our walks, I miss having you nearby when I sleep.  I miss having my bathmat rearranged into a comfortable dog pillow.  I miss your dirty foot prints in the shower.


 }++{ I miss you.  }++{  I miss you.   }++{  I miss you.  }++{


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: Trisha on January 25, 2013, 05:04:43 PM
 }wmpr{

Oh, don't I know the feeling. It was a year for Daisy on Monday. Hang in there.  }runhug{


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: minniesmom on January 25, 2013, 05:29:21 PM
 {{~~}} To both of you


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: Doc Stan on January 25, 2013, 06:51:19 PM
 {{~~}}   Doc..


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: KivaLuver on January 25, 2013, 10:55:02 PM
The sense of loss can be overwhelming at times. Allow yourself to grieve, miss, and remember.  {{~~}}


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: megs on January 26, 2013, 07:57:22 AM
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Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: Kim H on January 26, 2013, 01:15:06 PM
 }++{


Title: Re: I can't believe she's gone....
Post by: A.J. on January 26, 2013, 08:37:19 PM
 {{~~}} {{~~}} {{~~}}  I am so very sorry for your loss! 

Run free at the bridge Pandora!  RIP Sweetie pie!

I know it's hard.  I couldn't go to get Cana's ashes, E had to go.   }wmpr{

The pretty box she's in, is on my end table, next to the foot print they gave us.

Every morning as I'm passing that box, I touch it and say "good morning" to her.

I hope your heart heals very soon!   {{~~}}